Every man has a fire inside. You either rebirth in the fire or are destroyed by it. Why do so many people love playing games? Because in games, they can gain a sense of achievement and respect that they can't get in real life. But why do you feel empty and self-destructive? Because everything you see is fake. No matter how hard you try to kill enemies and level up gear, you know it's all fake. You are very aware that you can't adapt to reality.